CONTINUATION POST

[pchaaair]

[for when posts get really big!!]

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[appleofhiseye]

[from here]

Not a very good one. I'll keep practicing, okay?

[pchaaair]

I—... would be willing to listen.

[appleofhiseye]

I'll test them out on you and you can see what you think. ...Why didn't you say anything?

[pchaaair]

... About the library?

[appleofhiseye]

Yes. Did you think I would be mad?

[pchaaair]

... Yes ...

[appleofhiseye]

Did you do something I'd be mad about?

[pchaaair]

[if only there was a soundtrack to this, there'd be a literal record scratch right here.]

[he opens his mouth to say something, but he looks really distressed... all the same. probably an expression that apple hasn't seen since the time he was on celeste/still a brand new sage. and then he abruptly closes his mouth and tries to get up because no if he says anything apple might leave and valerian doesn't know if he can cope with the idea of that right now.]

[appleofhiseye]

[WRAPPING HER ARMS AROUND HIS WAIST you can't get away]

Sit. It's okay.

[pchaaair]

[nnnooooo]

[he still looks distressed, but SINCE APPLE IS MAKING IT so that he can't get away, he won't be able to get away. :(]

[appleofhiseye]

I'm still here, aren't I? Have a little more faith. Didn't I say I wouldn't leave?

[pchaaair]

[It's possible that you would, if you knew what happened, though.]

. . . I . . . guess . . .

[appleofhiseye]

I'm staying right here. So, tell me.

[pchaaair]

You don't want to know.

[appleofhiseye]

Tell me anyways.

[pchaaair]

[that gets him to stop. what he's doing. and what he says is really rushed and quiet.]

WechoseIrisbecausewewerescaredofCardinalandwhattheywoulddobecausetheykeptsayingthattheywouldruinanyonethatpickedthemandSaffronwaspairedwithustoo. WemadeituptoIrisbutthatiswhy.

[... '-' and then he tries to get away again because he's really distressed and he's squeezing his eyes shut pretty tightly.]

[appleofhiseye]

[hugging him tighter, no leaving]

Not that fast. Calm down.

[pchaaair]

. . . We chose Iris, because we were scared of Cardinal, and what they would do, because they kept saying that they would fuck anyone up, that even tried to protect themselves from them, and—Saffron was paired with us, in that game, and—... we worked it out with Iris, and apologized, and it's—...

[you're gonna hate me '-']

[appleofhiseye]

[tensing up, but otherwise just hugging him and keeping quiet ._.]

[pchaaair]

[when he feels that, he just. slumps. he knew she'd tense up, but even with what apple's told him before his mind is still running away from him. ._.]

Don't tell Ivy. We never told her, because she can't cope with those kinds of games.

[appleofhiseye]

[nods]

...She wasn't there?

[pchaaair]

No. She wasn't.

[can you let me go now 8(]

[appleofhiseye]

[no]

I...I'm sorry.

[pchaaair]

[he didn't expect that, so he's a little... startled...]

... What?

[appleofhiseye]

I--I don't really know what to say. I couldn't be there for you when you needed it, and there isn't anything I can say to help you with it now. I'm sorry for that.